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Believing the Word of God anyway…When Battling with your feelings/oppression

I always know when I’m under a spiritual attack or spiritual warefare. I always start off doing great. I’m reading my Word, and praying. Feeling like I can conquer anything because I have stayed close to God. Then off of a sudden a random spark or frustration enter my life, and lately as it seems to be able to knock me off course. I fall into a depression and I begin becoming distant.

To be real…it’s scary how you can know God’s Word and know that falling away from Him isn’t a good idea, but you still are convinced it’s no big deal anyway. Then you begin to feel symptoms of oppression from the devil during that times. It’s real guys, spiritual warfare is out there because satan does not want us to succeed in victory. I don’t mean to credit him for his evil schemes, but he has a way of oppressing some of us enough to where we get comfortable in it, and enough to where we aren’t desperate for God to deliver us. His main goal is to make us feel defeated to where we completely give up…and why? Because he knows the potential we have to work in the Kingdom of God, and he desperately needs to stop us so we cannot succeed. I’m a little off topic, but in the midst of me feeling attacked and nor having the strength to get in God’s word. I’m doing it anyway. I’m also reading a book called Girls with Swords by Lisa Bevere. And it has helped me to see why the battle between God’s children and the devil is so real and what’s really going on.

But continuing on, I have noticed especially during these times where I feel distant from God, I’ve usually slipped back into a state of oppression. And the lies (I say lies because they’re extremely convincing, but not from God) that I have believed about God are crazy. That is what also has kept me from wanting to seek Him further. But… I know what the Word says…and I know who God really is. Why am I so persuaded that His character is not what it says it is? It’s in His Word, He says He loves me so much that He sent His son Jesus Christ to die for me. So I could have everlasting life! 

That’s the part as believers that we have to conquer. Along with so many other influences, I believe the media is one that has such a pedestal and has convinced us that we are not worth what we really are. Weight is not good enough… body shape, hair, facial features, economic status, how much we possess. So we take all of those things, and actually believe what they say. You’re nothing if you don’t have …… And we believe that!

Then, when we come to God’s Word, we have a hard time believing Him because we let lies from the devil and these outside sources hold their “credibility” in our minds. We can believe all this other stuff from the Bible (if even that), but the part about God having a plan for our life in Jeremiah 29:11 can’t be true? 

2 Timothy 3:16-17 says:

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work


The important part I want you to see is, All Scripture is God-breathed. The Word was written through other people, but it was God inspired and He gave them the words to write. God is never silent but speaks very thorough on His thoughts toward His people.

This morning I had to push myself to start reading the Word again, after being out of it for a few months. The thought came to mind of what am I going to do when I read the Word? As I’m reading these verses, will I believe them to be true? Or see that they are true and straight from God’s word, but continue believing the lies I’ve believed (that are contrary to God’s word)?

That’s when I realized, I will actually have to believe even when my mind and emotions don’t feel like it. We are so often looking for a feeling that makes us feel like reading our Bibles, or praying. We won’t always feel motivated to do that. And when in a war against the enemy, it’s our choice to press through and stay close to God or fall away. There isn’t a gravitational force that connects us to God. This isn’t to say that God has left us during this time. But not spending time with Him will cause us to feel as though He’s left. And that’s the truth. It would be the same way if we had a relationship with anybody in our life. I spend time with a friend for a couple days during the week. We begin to skip hanging out during the week, and a month or two goes by. I don’t feel that closeness to that person as much because we’ve given up our personal time together. The relationship hasn’t felt like it’s growing.

The Word of God is clear when it talks about finding God.

Jeremiah 29:13 NIV

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I hope this post wasn’t too all over the place. I really encourage your if you are struggling with doubt about the way God sees you, or even getting back into your Bible, to do it anyway. There’s no formula that I can give yout that’ll make your doubt magically appear. There’s not a 3 step method. But when you get in God’s Word, your mind will be transformed to believing the truth. Along with prayer, you will begin to feel closer to God as you stay in consistency. Overall, the ultimate factor over believing truth over the lies is choice. I learned that this morning as I read this,

Psalm 139:15‭-‬18 NIV

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you.

I had no other way to make myself get this scripture that God’s thoughts are precious to me. I have to train my mind to see myself as God sees me. Train myself to believe that His word is true. Because I know it is, but because of the way I perceive myself at times, it often conflicts with whether or not I will believe what He really says. And He created me! So how can the Creator of the universe, who created me…and knows me inside and out.. be false in His thoughts towards me?

A mini project I do is writing scripture of God’s thoughts towards me on some note cards and put it on my wall or somen here that I can see it often. And do repeat it to myself often daily as part of training my mind of the Gods truth. Here’s a few encouraging ones, but there’s so much more!

Jeremiah 29:11, Psalm 139, Psalm 18:2, Psalm 140:7

Be blessed guys! 


God’s Word to Me: Rise Up, King

As I was walking with my Father near a beautiful ocean, I asked Him a couple of things. I didn’t understand, could there me more to mankind, Daddy? What are the qualities of a King? I have no idea what royalty looks like, and if I’ve ever met a King..these men must be of another species of royalty. Then I gain the courage up to ask Him, “Father, what are the qualities of a King?”

My Father turns to me and smiles at me. Then He answered me by explaining:

“In this world, there are two types of men. There is man and there’s a King. The examples you have seen in this world do not exemplify my definition of a King. They are very rare to cross paths with. My precious daughter, a King is not someone that possesses much wealth or high status because those kind have gained favor with the world, but never encountered the prescence of Me..the Heavenly King. Such a man has favor with the world, a King finds favor in the heart of the Lord. I smile upon them daily as they are humble and obedient. Glory could never be labeled on their name because they give their strength and credit where it is due. I honor them more than anyone else, because it takes great humility to deny their pride and follow after me.”

I watched my Father gracefully finish explaining these things to me. 
“A KING is a warrior.  I have placed special strength upon the ones who are going to be made stronger through their weakness. It is a sign…a wonder…of a true one who is going to make it through his battles. Notice, he will never give up. And you will never hear him curse against Me for his circumstances.”

I grew more fascinated. This was no longer a question, but a reality. 

“You will be able to recognize the difference because they are hit with the strongest warfare.” My eyes grew wide because I didn’t understand. Why do Kings face trials but the men of the world were able to just live their lives stress free?

It was like He sensed my thoughts, even though He already knew them. “The men of the world live their lives freely. And they have an enemy who wants to keep their soul; so their enemy sends comfort and pleasure their way to keep them distracted. Since they never suffer from trials, they do not know the Source of their strength. They lie comfortably, never suffering or doing without because pleasure and selfish desires consume them. They do not know how to be dependent on Me in their weakness. Neither do they face much weakness, and if they did, they would never admit to it. A King though…He will fight with all the life left in him, even if he is pushed flat on his face before his enemies. Though I did not create the afflictions that these warriors face in their lifetime. I have the power to turn it around for good. I will not allow them to be left destroyed. Through My Power, I will rise them up to defeat every evil thing that tried to conquer them. My love,” He said as he caressed my hand, “You can tell the strength of a King by the position he remains in during his battle.”

“So um. What are you saying?” I asked confused.

“If he is a King, he will not stay on his face. He will take a knee, and call on Me. That’s how you will be able to tell if he can fight his battle. He depends not on his own strength, but on the Source of power that is within him. Me…”

I have so many more questions. I want to know more. But wait…this is all starting to make sense. A man has to be anointed as a King. He is called…no wait…chosen.

“Does that help you understand?” He said to me. We finally stopped and turned towards each other. 

“One more question. What would make you grant favor upon a King?”

“Well.” He paused for a moment and began staring in my eyes. I really got His attention with that question. “He gains favor because of his surrender. I choose the King, but it is his choice whether to accept me, and allow me to elevate him in higher places.” Another pause… “But as you have asked, other than his total surrender to me. I have set the special favor upon him by the prayers of Queens all over the world. And because of their prayers, I will have favor upon the Kings.”

“Okay, Father. I clearly understand everything now.” 

It all made sense. I understood the royalty. The strength. The humility. The anonting that one man, no…one King had.

“Father, I had to ask you. I never truly understood what  King looked like, but You are all knowing. And I asked because I have recognized what one looks like. It all makes sense now.”

He pulled a tiara from inside His robe. “You…are a Queen.”