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Lonely Road

I absolutely love this song. For the portion I grew closer in my walk with God 5 years ago, I walked alone. Just a high school girl, who was actually anointed to be a woman of God. Fast forward those 5 years later, I’m in a greater dwelling place of the Lord. It feels even lonelier now. Just me and God. But what I’m learning during this season of being alone with God is that He is all I need. I feel like we hear people talk about contentment in Christ like it is so easy; they even put it in worship songs like it’s so simple to just surrender everything to God. Fact of the matter, it hurts when you have no one to turn to but God… But maturity is found when you continue to press in. God actually had to draw me closer to Him through isolation. Nobody around to be distracting. Even though feelings of confusion continue to lie within, I will lie on my face before my Father and cry out. Those lonely nights when I want someone to talk to, I don’t even take it to the “friends” that are left, it goes straight to the Father.

I love you, Jesus…thank you for being faithful. The only one that has kept me this whole time. For you have never abandoned.

 

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Seasons

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I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” ~John 16:33 NLT

Current seasons of my life feel of sorrow and pain.
I’m not understanding it. Lord I need your security.

Give me your love and your strength and secure it in me. 

I’m afraid, Father. I miss my dreams. I miss the solitude I used to have in you. The forever faith

I used to believe for good things, now I doubt them. 

I don’t believe I’m meant for good or to recieve it.

Father, what has convinced me of this?

Am I solely looking at my fears and failures?

I crave wholeness again, but I was barely whole as it was.

I feel so purposeless to the point I don’t want anything anymore. Lord are you still here?

I miss you…please fill me up again. 

Let me experience your grace.

Can we both just run away? And it’ll just be you and me, forever. 

I need your comfort. Meet me in that secret place, and fill up again….

I desire your wholeness. Keep my eyes on you.