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Lonely Road

I absolutely love this song. For the portion I grew closer in my walk with God 5 years ago, I walked alone. Just a high school girl, who was actually anointed to be a woman of God. Fast forward those 5 years later, I’m in a greater dwelling place of the Lord. It feels even lonelier now. Just me and God. But what I’m learning during this season of being alone with God is that He is all I need. I feel like we hear people talk about contentment in Christ like it is so easy; they even put it in worship songs like it’s so simple to just surrender everything to God. Fact of the matter, it hurts when you have no one to turn to but God… But maturity is found when you continue to press in. God actually had to draw me closer to Him through isolation. Nobody around to be distracting. Even though feelings of confusion continue to lie within, I will lie on my face before my Father and cry out. Those lonely nights when I want someone to talk to, I don’t even take it to the “friends” that are left, it goes straight to the Father.

I love you, Jesus…thank you for being faithful. The only one that has kept me this whole time. For you have never abandoned.

 

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Stranded In The Desert…Isolation with God

Search me, Lord…Reveal anything that is corrupt in my heart. Destroy my insecurities.

Be my refuge, be my strength. Be my everything. Wipe every tear that streams from my eyes. Caress me thru this lonely season I am experiencing Lord. Make me strong out of it Father.

I figure it’s going to be a little longer before I’m completely out of it. For so long I have been standing alone, even today I stand isolated in the desert…Oh Lord, but I realize that I am not alone because of You. Your Word says you will never forsake me, God I won’t wonder this desert all by myself, because I know I have you to guide me as I feel lost.I don’t understand it, or why I’m going through it… But help me understand what it is I need to learn from it. Spare me some living water and breath so I can make it through, take away these tears so I can see the path that’s ahead.

Questions cross my mind. Why am I like this? Am I too emotional…Lord, am I not handling myself right? I probably should forget it all and just pull together, toughen up. The insecurities are trying to get this best of me…I’m drowning not to give in.

This season is called winter, it’s cold, and it feels unbearable. But in your arms I understand that you are warmth. You are enabling to feel whole again. Fill me up and piece me back together. Please make me whole.

In Your Arms is where I find my comfort and my strength. I find wholeness and I find love. Protect me Father, just guard my heart right now so I can continue being healed as You strength me.

Psalms 139:1-5 ~~”You have searched me, Lord , and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord , know it completely. You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me.”

Psalms 141:1-2 ~~ “I call to you, Lord , come quickly to me; hear me when I call to you. May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice.”