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Are you breaking God’s heart with your words?

Hi everyone. It’s been a while since I wrote a blog post. I’ve definitely been going through a season of challenges and discouragement and trying to hang onto my faith for dear life. But I felt led by God tonight to post a blog post about the words we speak. I was just getting ready to write a journal entry and then go to bed, but knowing the Lord, He always shows up during unexpected times. And when you are a writer, those times frequently occur during the middle of the night, or right before you go to bed. 😅 You become inspired to write. Lol. Writers block kicks in when you least want it to.

But what really hit home for me tonight (it’s 2am as I write this) was something the Lord dropped upon my spirit. Are you breaking God’s heart with your words? Let’s first absorb that for a moment. What comes to mind when you hear that phrase. Do you think of evil words that are spoken? Cursing or swearing, maybe? Well, what came to mind for me when the Lord dropped this in my spirit was are we breaking God’s heart with the negative words we speak and what we have to say about ourselves. I want to break this blog post down into two parts because it is so crucial that we begin to really investigate the words that are coming out of our mouths.

First part: Negative speaking about your circumstances

For me, I have become so consumed by this season of discouragement that I’ve been facing. When I say season of discouragement and challenges, I am no where implying that God has sent a season of discouragement upon me. I just wanted to clarify that. I refer to it as a season because I have been dealing with it constantly, and not taking it to God’s word and seeking His encouragement on these challenges. So today I finally came to grasp with it and realized all that I had been doing wrong and I want to quickly share that with you.

This year has been a really tough year as I have been seeking to overcome the hurts, pains and stress that life has thrown my way. I am on a road to healing and deliverance of all that God has for me. But rewind to the beginning of this year, I got so caught up in what began to frustrate me and what wasn’t going right in my life. I began getting upset at the things that had happened this year and the things that weren’t working out. I was speaking so many things. “I’m so frustrated.” “Can’t I just get a break?” “I don’t believe these types of things will ever stop happening to me.” “I’m so annoyed\mad about….” “I give up.” Even writing these words that I had previously spoken has made me realize why I was experiencing all of that pain. That’s not to say that my words caused the pain I was facing to happen in the first place. But my negative words only increased my negative thinking and drew me further away from a positive mindset. Thinking positive was unreachable because how far I had allowed myself to get away from speaking better things. I should have been encouraging myself. But to mellow out my frustrations, I should have gotten in the Word of God and spoke to all the challenges that I had been facing.

The aftermath of everything got to the point that the literal stress and pain that was affecting my spirit began affecting my body as well. I experienced several neck and back pains, and tried having the pain relieved through massage therapy. And a couple months later, when those pains started going away, I started experiencing loss of appetite, more stress and it affected my body totally. I wasn’t taking care of myself right, but you know what… I also believe that my negative speaking caused me to become physically ill. Now, most people don’t believe that your words can have these types of effects on you. But I believe that we can only speak so many negative things that it causes our body to begin releasing stress in ways that we may not know of. That’s just my personal experience, but I guarantee that your negative words can cause you more harm than good, and even some health issues.

Second part: Negative speaking about yourself

I believe that what we speak about ourselves we tend to believe. Proverbs 18:21 says that “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Look at the tail end of tat scripture… “Those who love it will eat its fruit.” What this means is that the fruit of our speech can either be good or bad. We can speak good and positive things, and have good any positive results. Or we can speak negatives things and have exactly that. One of the artists I used to listen to referenced in his song, how we should be careful how we use our words because God spoke the word into existence with His words. So imagine what are words could be doing when we say them aloud. That doesn’t mean we are going to create material things out of nowhere. But it means that we have influence over the way we speak and think. We can speak good things into existence and train our mind into more of a positive mindset. Because when we speak things, we are actually affecting our mind and showing what we really believe.

Ephesians 4:29 says “Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.” So God is saying here that we shouldn’t let unwholesome talk come out of our mouths; and though I believe it applies to words that people use to swear or hurtful things that people say to other people, I strongly believe this applies to us as well. What are you saying about us yourself? Are you constantly calling yourself names? Degrading your looks, discouraging your ability, doubting the God-given gifts that God has placed within you? Think about the time that someone said something hurtful about you. Did you become convinced it was true? Well, I believe that when we speak negative things about ourselves, our mind starts to believe it.

Matthew 12:36, Jesus says “I tell you, on the day of judgement people will given account for every careless word they speak…” Why do we want to be judged for speaking words that weren’t uplifting? In other translations, the bible calls these careless words “idle”.

Let’s identify…what are you speaking? If it didn’t come from the Word of God, why are you speaking it? Why are you putting yourself down or even others for that matter? God didn’t say that about you…and God doesn’t believe that about that person you just put down.

Are you breaking God’s heart with your words? Are you discrediting yourself, putting down others or speaking unwholesome talk? Let’s be mindful this week as we go through our week. I challenge anyone who reads this post to really study these scriptures that I’m going to post below. And began to correct yourself when you start to feel the urge to speak something that is negative and not God’s best for you. Confession is real. We can speak so many good things into our lives, or we can speak much bad. I believe it is time to reprogram our minds and our speech to something that is edifying to God. Like the old saying “if you don’t have anything good to say, don’t say at all.” Instead, let’s take it to the word of God and see what he has to say about our situation so we can starting declaring His promises over our lives.

Scriptures to meditate on this week:

Proverbs 18:21

Matthew 12:36

Ephesians 4:29

Words to uplift yourself

Jeremiah 29:11

Romans 8:28

Jeremiah 33:3

Here’s a little song to encourage you this week! Speak Life by Toby Mac

Photo credit to the whole magazine.com



Dear Baby Boy- A Father’s Day Letter to my future son

Dear Baby Boy,
Of all the struggles, I pray you never have to struggle with this one. It is my sincere prayer that you are loved and cared all the days of your life by future daddy and I. I was reminded today on June 18, 2017 of the importance of fatherhood. I’m not sure how young you’ll be when you read this. I definitely want you to understand of the importance of the role of two father figures in your life. The first is your earthly father. I’m only 21 and I haven’t exactly meant your father yet, as I’m writing this, but I’ve been praying for your earthly daddy since the time I was 14. Praying that he’ll be everything that you need and want. And though he won’t be able to fill the voids and the cracks in your heart, I know he will be the emotional support you’ll need everyday. I can tell you one thing about him I have full faith in…he will be a man that chases after the savior’s heart. You’ll never have to question if he loves you because His Heavenly Father above has taught him how to love you and your siblings as God loved his son Jesus. He will teach you how to be a man one day, because that’s not something I am capable of. I will be here for you always, but the place of your father is one that I simply cannot fill. Your dad will talk a lot, and drive you crazy at times. For all you know, this is a prophecy of something that is already existing. He might even be getting on your nerves when he pushes you to try new things. But this is a good thing, future son. My father did that with me, and we will do that for you. You’ll realize soon enough that through the things your daddy pushes you towards, you’ll discover culture & creativity & passion. I want you to remember that also through your Heavenly Father, you’ll discover your worth as a King. He is your ultimate Father and you should always put Him first before anyone else. Because when you’re dad and I aren’t there with you at times, He will never leave. There’s so many promises to assure you of that…

“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8

I love you future son. And I can’t wait 4 the day you are born and also the day that you become a father and can do the same thing for your children.  You’ll never have to wonder because you have a support system built up around you, and you haven’t even been born yet.

See you soon, king.
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Believing the Word of God anyway…When Battling with your feelings/oppression

I always know when I’m under a spiritual attack or spiritual warefare. I always start off doing great. I’m reading my Word, and praying. Feeling like I can conquer anything because I have stayed close to God. Then off of a sudden a random spark or frustration enter my life, and lately as it seems to be able to knock me off course. I fall into a depression and I begin becoming distant.

To be real…it’s scary how you can know God’s Word and know that falling away from Him isn’t a good idea, but you still are convinced it’s no big deal anyway. Then you begin to feel symptoms of oppression from the devil during that times. It’s real guys, spiritual warfare is out there because satan does not want us to succeed in victory. I don’t mean to credit him for his evil schemes, but he has a way of oppressing some of us enough to where we get comfortable in it, and enough to where we aren’t desperate for God to deliver us. His main goal is to make us feel defeated to where we completely give up…and why? Because he knows the potential we have to work in the Kingdom of God, and he desperately needs to stop us so we cannot succeed. I’m a little off topic, but in the midst of me feeling attacked and nor having the strength to get in God’s word. I’m doing it anyway. I’m also reading a book called Girls with Swords by Lisa Bevere. And it has helped me to see why the battle between God’s children and the devil is so real and what’s really going on.

But continuing on, I have noticed especially during these times where I feel distant from God, I’ve usually slipped back into a state of oppression. And the lies (I say lies because they’re extremely convincing, but not from God) that I have believed about God are crazy. That is what also has kept me from wanting to seek Him further. But… I know what the Word says…and I know who God really is. Why am I so persuaded that His character is not what it says it is? It’s in His Word, He says He loves me so much that He sent His son Jesus Christ to die for me. So I could have everlasting life! 

That’s the part as believers that we have to conquer. Along with so many other influences, I believe the media is one that has such a pedestal and has convinced us that we are not worth what we really are. Weight is not good enough… body shape, hair, facial features, economic status, how much we possess. So we take all of those things, and actually believe what they say. You’re nothing if you don’t have …… And we believe that!

Then, when we come to God’s Word, we have a hard time believing Him because we let lies from the devil and these outside sources hold their “credibility” in our minds. We can believe all this other stuff from the Bible (if even that), but the part about God having a plan for our life in Jeremiah 29:11 can’t be true? 

2 Timothy 3:16-17 says:

All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work


The important part I want you to see is, All Scripture is God-breathed. The Word was written through other people, but it was God inspired and He gave them the words to write. God is never silent but speaks very thorough on His thoughts toward His people.

This morning I had to push myself to start reading the Word again, after being out of it for a few months. The thought came to mind of what am I going to do when I read the Word? As I’m reading these verses, will I believe them to be true? Or see that they are true and straight from God’s word, but continue believing the lies I’ve believed (that are contrary to God’s word)?

That’s when I realized, I will actually have to believe even when my mind and emotions don’t feel like it. We are so often looking for a feeling that makes us feel like reading our Bibles, or praying. We won’t always feel motivated to do that. And when in a war against the enemy, it’s our choice to press through and stay close to God or fall away. There isn’t a gravitational force that connects us to God. This isn’t to say that God has left us during this time. But not spending time with Him will cause us to feel as though He’s left. And that’s the truth. It would be the same way if we had a relationship with anybody in our life. I spend time with a friend for a couple days during the week. We begin to skip hanging out during the week, and a month or two goes by. I don’t feel that closeness to that person as much because we’ve given up our personal time together. The relationship hasn’t felt like it’s growing.

The Word of God is clear when it talks about finding God.

Jeremiah 29:13 NIV

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

I hope this post wasn’t too all over the place. I really encourage your if you are struggling with doubt about the way God sees you, or even getting back into your Bible, to do it anyway. There’s no formula that I can give yout that’ll make your doubt magically appear. There’s not a 3 step method. But when you get in God’s Word, your mind will be transformed to believing the truth. Along with prayer, you will begin to feel closer to God as you stay in consistency. Overall, the ultimate factor over believing truth over the lies is choice. I learned that this morning as I read this,

Psalm 139:15‭-‬18 NIV

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand— when I awake, I am still with you.

I had no other way to make myself get this scripture that God’s thoughts are precious to me. I have to train my mind to see myself as God sees me. Train myself to believe that His word is true. Because I know it is, but because of the way I perceive myself at times, it often conflicts with whether or not I will believe what He really says. And He created me! So how can the Creator of the universe, who created me…and knows me inside and out.. be false in His thoughts towards me?

A mini project I do is writing scripture of God’s thoughts towards me on some note cards and put it on my wall or somen here that I can see it often. And do repeat it to myself often daily as part of training my mind of the Gods truth. Here’s a few encouraging ones, but there’s so much more!

Jeremiah 29:11, Psalm 139, Psalm 18:2, Psalm 140:7

Be blessed guys! 

A Bold Prayer

A prayer…when struggling in doubt and confusion.

You are in control, Lord. All that goes on…you are a shield around me. I don’t understand….but You are good. I ask that you begin to change my heart. I don’t believe I’ve ever prayed that. I ask that you receive my boldness before your throne. If this things are what you have for my life, I ask that you’d begin to change my mindset to accept them. I thank you for allowing me to be open and willing to your plans for me. I have trust issues now, God. I haven’t been able to look at anything from a positive view. That’s what makes it so hard to trust you. I know that you are in control. I just need you to teach me how to trust you..I don’t know about life anymore, Lord. I’m kind of afraid of everything now..but I receive your peace and strength and I thank You that You are breaking my walls down. I give you full access of my heart. Begin to change me, rearrange me. Give me Your heart. And help me to receive all of your good things. Change my heart so I am no longer consumed in fear, anxiety, uncertainity. I love you Father..thank you for constantly teaching me how to love you. I know You’re God, but I can’t believe you’ve stuck with me this far…
I pray this in Jesus Name, amen.