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A New Breed

Hey everyone! I’m writing a little unrhyming poetry on something that was on my spirit last night. I find that now adays, there’s such difference in the way I relate to people. Like, there are very few people on that relatable level. So I was inspired to write this to just be vulnerable about how I feel very different from people sometimes, but I still embrace being unique. It’s a little different than what I usually write, but I hope you enjoy it!

A New Breed

I’m a new breed of human. And that’s not to sound weird. 

Everywhere I look though, people of similar relatablility are yet to be found.

It’s like they sense my uniqueness, and are turned away, uninterested maybe.

Unique, passionate and full of soul & culture.

On fire for God, His Princess, Royalty. 

I have yet to find someone that understands, 

Even a quarter what I say. If I did, I would be good. 

I don’t question if I’m unique or hate the fact I am the way I am.

Secretly though, I wish I could find the tribe of “misfits” similar to myself.

As I said, the “uniqueness” that I refer to are not weird passions, or odd interests.

But simply a life of serving God and embracing life’s beauty, diversity and God’s creativity. 
Living as a new breed means being set apart.

The trials that come with being set apart is having to walk the road alone sometimes, most of the time.

Endurance, perserverance, and above all… strength.

A graceful woman and a soulful spirit. 

I’m passionate about things that the world sees as foreign.

I am in love with cultures that are not my own, and embrace them beautifully. 

In all honestly, I have become apart of culture myself as I daily grow through it passionately. 

What I am about, I hope to find in another one day.

But in this new breed…

With a population of 1, at least that I know,

They don’t exist… do they?

If they do, welcome to my…our world. 

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The Missing Rib đź’‹

​11-27-16 Sunday 1:40 am
A woman or rarity and wholeness. 

Pure and hidden in the hands of God.

Untouched…
I was the missing rib that was removed from his side.

He was put in a deep sleep, being prepared by God.

Just for me.

Those words were once unfathomable.

They remained a dream that hoped for the accompaniment of a vision.
I am the missing rib that is waiting in preparation.

No other part of the rib cage can compare. 

I been anointed to love him, even in the times he can’t see himself as worthy.

What he doesn’t see, is the strength he has.

As a King…
Adam, I can’t complete you. But I definitely will push out your potential.

You don’t see the greater you, and mainly because God is showing you.

He will ultimately get the glory, but He will most definitely show you the creation that you were predestined to be.
As a rib, that’s why part of why I’m waiting.

When he is ready, he will believe on himself again.

His vision and purpose will be complimented by me.

Though I thought I was ready, I became reminded of who chose me in the first place. 

I lost sight of Him, and now I crave to be closer.

Stronger. Bonded with Him.

If I ever lost sight of that, My First Love, I am so sorry.

I’m sorry if you felt neglected and pushed to the side. 

Because of my unawareness.
I’m returning to you My First Love. 

Love me first, and show me who I am.

First as a woman of God.

In Your timing, present me as the missing rib to the sleeping Adam that is in a deep sleep.

I will be waiting, ready as your helpmate.

But I need to be assured that you will do your job in pursuing and protecting me.

I am hidden in God, and I can’t be exposed to anything outside of that.

My prayer is though, that he is more concerned of the things of you, than the desire he is to be loved by his missing rib.

Me.

Sleep well, Adam. My prayer is that your mind is filled with sweet and perfect dreams.

The Isolated Gem Pt.2

June 21, 2016
Similar to the gem in the hands of the miner…

She is a Queen; a precious Jewel, but not an ordinary one. A rare jewel that hasn’t been seen before that sparkles of every type of color in her Father’s crown (Zechariah (9:16). She is Proverbs 31, at least in the making because she seeks daily to become the type of woman that He desires her too. She is not flawless, but perfectly flawed. Every morning she wakes up wishing that she could be something different, someone different. But her Father comes to her as He wakes her up to remind her that she was not meant to be different than who she was, because He already created her different (Proverbs 30:30).

Lonely nights turning quickly around as she spends time with her Father, and laying every distraction aside. He whispers gentle promises to her about the future she will hold…Big things, great things…everything sounds unthinkable. But her Creator already prepared a destiny for her to walk in and now it is time. Her dreams are not diminished to anything small (Jeremiah 29:11).

Underneath her sparkle lied deep blemishes from past handlings. Scrapes and scratches that had eventually left scars. But He still saw her value. He still came to the rescued her again, healing every blemish that was supposed to be irremovable (Psalm 51:10). He still saw value after all of her flaws…and He continued to purify her, to keep her looking even more beautiful. Even though her heart had been scarred from the rejection of mankind, she had been untouched by the hands of a man.

He isolated her, because she was sacred to Him. Untouched.  Any association with this jewel had to go through the hands of her Father first. She was bought with a price, and if any man wanted her, her Father could only grant the permission. She was guarded, because He valued her that much. He protected her even in the times she didn’t see danger ahead. Hidden under His wings, as He isolated her because He wanted her fully to Himself. The world was a distraction and still is. Her Father wanted to keep her protected from the impurities of the world. She was the purest thing, because she did nothing outside of the will of God. Honoring everything that He set forth for her to obey. (Jeremiah 1:5)

Her purity was sacred, her image was holy as she represented her Father and her worth was priceless. This beautiful gem could not be cherished by many, because only her Father knew how too. He would have to teach them, because her worth is far above rubies (Proverbs 31:10). She is held precious within His hands and to accept anything less would be settling. Her Father knows best for her…and as she submits to Him, He will give her the desires of her heart (Psalms 37:4).

She never realized her value until she realized that she was beautifully broken, in need of her Savior. Once wounded, but forever set free. No more pain, no more grief. Her Father rescued her and kept her safe. And yet, all this time, His view of her never once changed.

Set Apart at birth…A Royal Queen. But a Princess in the eyes of her Father (Ephesians 2:10).

Hakeem’s Lyric: Seeking the Bronze Key

September 3, 2016

Hakeem “Wise”

Shaya “God’s Gift”

Below I have written a poem similar to the poetry style of Songs of Solomon in the Bible, except it is more modern day and easy to figure out its symbolic meanings.. Solomon admired every aspect of his bride. Every aspect of her body, her beauty and pursued her through their relationship. In this story, Hakeem is an example of a modern day husband that pursued his wife in every area of their relationship.  I will post on this blog and include the rest of the parts to the poem series that I will post little by little! Follow my blog to be updated and leave a like or comment below to let me know what you thought of the story! Enjoy…

Hakeem… (The Pursuer)

She is a jewel of her own, incomparable to the others. An Isolated Gem.. Complimented with jewelry that enhances her beauty more. She’s so gentle and beautiful. Precious… I gaze upon her beauty, it is so overpowering. I feel weak, in a good way, because all I want to do is serve her, protect her but most importantly lead her. My Beauty. God must have used a detailed blueprint when He made her. Every detail of her face is perfection, and yet perfectly flawed. Each scar, mark, indent and line.

Shaya… (God’s Gift)

I never thought I was worthy when I was accompanied by my beloved. Hidden. Isolated. Forgotten. That’s what I felt like at times. I never was pursued, I never was lead. I desired to be carried away, but most men weren’t strong enough. They did not have the confidence to approach me.  An answered prayer, that was worth the wait I endured through singleness. In his presence, I never felt my time was wasted. Most of it is spent admiring him. His attire represents him as strong. On his right arm, is a tattoo of my name, engraved in a heart. Simple, but classic. I was afraid that soon he would have to bear the pain of having my name; and if we separated, he would be stuck with it permanently. Thank you my beloved, for teaching me how to be strong. Thank you for embracing me even in the midst of my deepest hurts. I couldn’t trust you at first, but you have truly proved me wrong. You never left…

He…
As Solomon once compared his bride, so am I comparing you “Like a lily among thorns is my darling among the young women.” (Song of Solomon 2:2) Nothing out there in the world that is so perfectly held by God as her. You have had suffered a lot of disappointments, but I am here to protect you from ever feeling that with me. Open your heart to me, and reveal the depths of your soul. I desire to explore your hurts, fears and disappointment; I can’t make them go away, but I will hold you thru it all. I am not your strength, but we both know who grants it to us.

She…
Fight is all we know. The trials we have endured together since the beginning…oh, how hard they seemed at first. Yet, they put to death the fear and the hurt we once knew. It allowed us to cleave, as one. To fight, as one. To struggle, as one. Three cords are not easily broken.

He…
Prior to meeting her, all I knew was fight and all she knew was pain. Well, they are both one in the same. Though her struggles were quite different than mine. Hers kept herself locked in a box covered with roses and leaves and she was afraid to come out. I lacked faith for a while because I thought I never would be able to see her. The key was misplaced, and when I found it, it was distorted.

She…
In the beginning I precaution him. “Don’t open the box. You don’t know what lies inside.” If he knew, he wouldn’t go any further. There was darkness and fear. That’s why the key was distorted, because others had glanced upon the rose decorative box but didn’t realize something so ugly could be lying inside the box.The trespassers purged their way through, and jacked up the key. Neither could they open it. The cry for help frightened them and they proceeded no further, dropping the key in various places.

He…
Her Father gave me the key…that was the only way…I spent so much time searching for it. He put it right in my sight; a dull bronze key lied within His hand. “This is to be treasured. If you cannot treasure it, I will have to ask for it back.” His last reply made me think. I really had to be careful, this wasn’t any ordinary key. The key was to her heart.

Peaceful Warrior

Slay, slay, slay….

This Queen fights her battles. Her voice is her greatest weapon. In her quietest moments, she speaks volumes. Declaring, Decreeing, Confessing. Evil arises, she hears it and knows it’s time to prepare.

She enters the War Room and sees trouble ahead. Her battles are not flesh and blood, but from the forces of the dark world. Her treasures are what they’re after… they think they can rob her of her safe keeping. That won’t destroy her. If anything, she’s determined to go harder than ever.

Peace resonates through her spirit. She is not afraid, neither does she feel intimidated. 

Trials and tribulations draw her to her knees. Blood, sweat and tears. But no fear. Yet it does not even weaken her. Perseverance is produced, and faith is mounted. 

She reminscences and holds tight to the promises of years ago. The foregoing promises are the shield for the present. They are prophecies of the future’s hidden mysteries. They keep her going, and draw her closer to her Source.
She plugs in to the Source of her Strength. Revival…Freedom, Hope. 

Ready. Refueled. She goes back in the War Room. Confidence awakens. Unshakable. Faith…that’s what is getting her through. Standing. Confessing over her treausres. Protecting them from theives. She hides them in her Source.

Her Strength is unbreakable. The forces are returning, they don’t realize who’s behind her. She’s prepared…

Bring It On.

A Peaceful Warrior awaits. The battle has just begun.

Ephesians 6:12

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”

1 Corinthians 16:13

“Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.

Single, Set Apart, But Satisfied?

“I can’t tell you how many times members of my family, family friends and young women my age continue to ask me if I have a boyfriend. And when my response is “no”, eyebrows are raised and questions arise. My answer back is “I’m waiting on God”. See, my view of dating is that God will bring you a man who will soon become your future husband (I’ll make a blog on this soon). I don’t see why I should spend my time out trying to find “The One” when God already has my One & Only. I never want to lose sight of my beautiful Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. And I believe spending so much time focusing on men and marriage will take my focus off of Jesus. Don’t get me wrong, I do want to marry my husband and have a family someday, but during my singleness I want to serve God with all my heart.” It’s so interesting to me that this was a draft to a devotion I wanted to previously do. I was only 16 years old when I wrote this. And as I read this statement again, I admired myself for choosing contentment in my singleness, even as a teenager that was devoted to God.

God wants you to be happy, and He does want you to have someone in your life that can make you happy. But too often people are missing the concept of happiness and contentment. Obviously, happiness is an emotion. We are full of joy, excited for what we have. But like I said, it is an emotion. Emotions are subject to change. Then there’s contentment, which is defined as “happiness with one’s situation in life; free from worry or restless”. Contentment is a choice. Contentment is accepting the circumstances [the wait] and choosing to believe God’s word over your situation. Choosing that you will surrender the desires of your heart to God and ask Him to bless you with them. Saying, Okay, Lord. I don’t understand the purpose of this wait. But I will CHOOSE to wait on You, because I know you have bigger and better things for my life. But what contentment is not is a choice to simmer in being unhappy or sulking in disappointment.

It’s okay to question and ask God what the wait is about. And you’re not alone in this wait. What I’m trying to say is, it’s okay to feel lonely. You feel like everyone out there is gettin’ married and being blessed by God, but you feel like He has forgotten about you. You don’t understand why God has set you to the side.

There is a period in your life (some of you may be experiencing, like me), where you have to wait on God concerning your “love life”. Maybe you’ve never been in a relationship and you’re waiting on God to bring you a husband; and you’re enduring the wait while feeling like you’ll be forever single. Or, some of you may be feeling like you’ve been in so many relationships and have failed to find “the one”. My whole point of this post is to let you know that GOD CARES ABOUT YOUR DESIRE TO BE LOVED. You need to understand that…

I don’t have all the answers to singleness. I know I felt the Lord place the desire of marriage on my heart 5 years ago, and praying that my future husband will make his way into my life. I’ll briefly share that I have met him and I know who he is, but I am still waiting on God to bring us together. In my circumstance, my singleness is a sacred season right now. I need to develop in my dreams and visions for my life first before I involve myself with my future husband.

Your singleness is sacred as well. First, God doesn’t want to give you off to just anybody. But God doesn’t want to give you off to the man broken and unprepared. Are you healed from your past, or still struggling with it? Do you have a vision for your life? Dreams you want to go after? Do not get so caught up in a relationship/future relationship that you neglect the Lord and His purpose for you. Maybe I’d be ready if… I’d be happy if…. You’ll be emotional at the time you are “so in love”. And as time goes on, you don’t even remember the purpose you have. It becomes revolved around your boyfriend and you feel purposeless. You need a vision for your life before you have a vision as a couple! The way to finding that out is seeking the Lord in prayer and reading of the Word. Asking Him what His plan is for your life, what dreams and desires He wants to awaken in you, and then your part comes in by making goals to accomplish them by doing them and using your gifts/talents. Put those talents and gifts to work!

In 1 Corinthians 7:32-25, the Bible explains the worries of singles and married couples. ”

32 I would like you to be free from concern. An unmarried man is concerned about the Lord’s affairs—how he can please the Lord. 33 But a married man is concerned about the affairs of this world—how he can please his wife—
34 and his interests are divided. An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the Lord’s affairs: Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world—how she can please her husband. 35 I am saying this for your own good, not to restrict you, but that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord.

Scripture explains here that basically once you become married, you are concerned with the things of your spouse, and you don’t have as much time with the Lord as you would have during your singleness. Your interests are divided because you need your focus on your wife, but primarily God is first.Vs. 34 talks about being unmarried and having no responsibility to fulfill the desires of a husband. That is truly amazing! During our singleness, God is all ours! And yes, marriage sounds like a sweet gift from God. But are you ready? Are you ready fully satisfied in the Lord to where if you weren’t going to be married, you’d be fully satisfied and complete in Him? Completion comes from God, not man. It is impossible for man to fulfill those hidden voids in your heart. That’s God’s job.

I was in a relationship where we both hadn’t been ready. It created frustration that eventually led to confusion and a break up. It was a God-led breakup, I will say. Because we lost our sense of vision and purpose for our relationship and we needed to seek God for His will for our own lives, individually. During that time, I lost a lot of my motivation and fire for God because I hadn’t been rooted in a deeper relationship with God in the first place. So that’s why I say it was a God-led break up because I needed to step back and figure out where God wanted me. And where He was taking me. But now, I am finding myself spending more time with God and getting back to what I used to be passionate about [music, writing and dreaming].

God’s timing is perfect. He is an on-time God. Are you seeking God for contentment during your singleness? Think about it, but also pray and ask God to show you what you need to work on with yourself before you get in a relationship. And when He shows you [which he will], work on them! It’s pointless to keep your focus of the wait on what you are waiting for. Seek healing, keep dreaming and get ready for God’s best!

Ladies, date Jesus! ❤ He is the perfect gentleman.

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Reflect on these questions and scripture.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
  • Do I trust God with my future and my desire to be married?
  • How am I striving for contentment in my singleness?
  • What dreams and goals do I have that I will allow God to establish me in during my singleness?

Prayer:

Heavenly Father, I love you and praise Your Holy Name. You are so good God. I never want to take your goodness for granted. I am asking You right now, for this specific season in my life, to teach me contentment. Help me overcome any disappointment and doubt that I experience, that will try and convince me that Your plans for my singleness and marriage are long delayed. Use me for a purpose in my singleness, prepare me as a wife. But I pray that my focus during my singleness is not a man, but I continue to fall in love with you daily. You are my first love Jesus, and I pray You never have second place to man. Give me patience and peace that You have good things prepared for my future.

In Jesus Name, Amen!

I want to encourage any readers to check out the book Wait and See by Wendy Pope. This will be an encouragement to help you understand waiting on God, through pauses and delays.